Beginning Your Memoir Despite Family Guilt and Critic Voices

When we first decide to write, we feel goodstories, and those with the most power may try
about itâ€"we have memories and storiesto suppress it.
that form who we are. We want to exploreA memoirist must begin by writing her story in a
ourselves, to capture times long gone andprotected bubble so the story can evolve. Take
preserve them in story form. To leave a legacycare of your writing environment, and protect
about our lives. But other voices compete withyou from forces that will derail your efforts.
our writingâ€"“what will people1.
think; you should be ashamed; you will embarrassFigure out the power dynamics in your family. If
the family. Don’t air dirty laundry; youthe critic voice stops you, write down what it
know only part of the truth, so be quiet. Yoursays. Try to find the original source of those
mother will roll over in her grave if she found outvoices in your background.
you wrote that.”2.
We all know these voices. They make us throwBegin with an imageâ€"a photograph is often
down the pen, sit back and turn on the TV. Wea good prompt. Write in your own natural voice.
don’t want to lose our family. We3.
don’t want to make them angry.If the voices say: “I don’t
Writing a memoir is an act of courage, evenknow how to write; my family will hate me; how
defiance against powerful family dynamics. Wedo I know I am writing the truth.”
need to find a way out.don’t stop. Write anyway. Your critic
As a family therapist, I have worked with manyfamily protector will try to silence you. If you
families, and because of my background,were silenced when you were growing up, you will
I’m in a position to help my coachingneed to work through it now.
clients understand the source of their resistance4.
to writing their stories, and the source of theDO NOT hit the delete button when you feel
critic voice inside.critical after writing. DO protect your writing from
When we write memoir, we reclaim our owncurious family or friend invaders. Treat your work
voice, we stake a claim to our version of thelike a young plant that needs protection.
story. Every family has multiple story lines. There5.
is the “official” version,Find supportive people to write with. Write in
controlled by the most powerful people in thecafés, in writing groups where you feel
family, usually the parents or those who have thesupport or at least no attack.
most to lose. The “lesser”6.
points of viewâ€"most often held by theRemember: if you’ve been abused,
children or those lesser in powerâ€"are oftenneglected, forgotten, or silenced, you likely learned
not believed or accepted as true.not to value your own point of view. Writing your
Who decides what version of a story to believe?own story can change that. Keep “telling
Who is not listened to? Whose point of view isit like it is.”
unwanted? The answers to these questions will7.
be decided by family dynamics and power.Write for five minutes. Another 15 minutes.
In most families there is aStretch your ability to stick with a story. When
“scapegoat,” or a clown, oryou feel like stopping, write for five minutes
the most sensitive. People in these roles may holdmore. We are tempted to stop as we get close
a unique, and unpopular, view of the familyto the core emotion of a story.